Steps into adulthood come with a strange mixture of liberation and suction. Leaving the house and entering an circumstance city like Bangalore with Mangalore’s knowledge is more than just a physical change – this is a journey to emotional discovery. This contemplative piece dives in raw, endless thoughts about a young woman, navigating the complexities of freedom, homogeneous and personal development, while trying to do a place for herself in a city that constantly challenges her identity.
🎭 A New Beginning — Discovering the “New Me”
Swaying away with all that, I know it is meant to be with the feeling of being considered belonged. I am a new person, knowing very well how the effects are going to change my life. A new chapter begins with the new personality, I was longing to notice my personal issues.
🔁 Changing Trajectory: From Emotions to Evolution
I am a new person, it has been a whirlwind of emotions, I want to change the trajectory of my life. It is the new me, a new portrayal of a living being, trying to teach a new person to know my life to have a very different perspective towards your life.
🏙️ The Shift from Mangalore to Bengaluru
I am finally going to be an independent individual, financially. I want to win over the human side of knowing, it isn’t sunshine and flowers moving to the big city called Bengaluru from a small town, Mangalore. Rush of emotions, tangling between the personal life involving family and friends, along with the colleagues, involving professional life. I need to change my lifestyle, my personality needs to be changed. I want so many things to be under my control, fulfilling the new place.
📞 Parents, Problems & Progress
I have a tendency to call my parents, for the silliest problems in life. It is diminishing slowly, and steadily, with a heavy heart, I do not want to cry. I feel homesick while traveling to the new place. I know the language, the culture, and traditions being eerily similar to the place. But, family and friends do not live within us. I have to change myself, in order to fit in. The heritage to be associated with has been different.
🗣️ The Language, The Culture & The Workplace
The linguistic accent has seen so many changes in my language. However, I need to realise the colleagues are not always going to be similar to the friends I had in school and college. The personality is eerily not what I envisioned myself to be. Yet, I have changed over the past few years.
💌 Letters to Mangalore — Grandparents & Festivals
This is the writeup I have been writing to the people I know. My grandparents read these letters, everyday.
These are the things that I write to my lovely grandparents, living in Mangalore. Sometimes, about the Diwali, Christmas and Holi in Bengaluru. The pictures are shared through Parents WhatsApp.
💭 Healing Through Writing & Reflection
I, as a granddaughter, have been writing about my feelings, which I always wanted to write about. Now, it is past, I feel. But, the first few days have not been the same, for me in my early days. I must change for the betterment of the future, I thought it would. I will love myself.
🚏 Whimsical Journeys, Emotional Realizations
A mystical journey to be associated, while traveling, while boarding the bus, and sometimes train, made me feel, what has been all that. It has changed my viewpoint to not notice what has changed underneath me.
The references might probably be whimsical but, it does have a point to be noticed. I want my life to be rearranged back to my old self. I have to let go of the emotions I hold within myself.
🧘♀️ Healthy Habits & The New Storyline
I do live a healthy lifestyle, from exercising to meditation and also, focusing on the new expenditure to start a new storyline. My personality is the detrimental effect of what I never thought myself to be in this position.
🌇 Closing Thought: As the Sun Goes Down
As the sun goes down, all day and everyday. My life is not going to stop for the rest of my journey, to live a life, like a human, lost in mundane activities within the crowd to make a living daily. This is what makes me say, what I feel to say,
“It has been all that.”
🎯 Conclusion
Life does not always follow a right way, and development is often wrapped in discomfort. Through the letters, the reflections and setting the conflicts that are shared in this story, we see to learn to learn how to love someone to adapt, develop and despite emotional disturbance. This story is a quiet reminder that the change is dirty, but meaningful – and sometimes we can all say at the end of the day: “It has been all that.”
Writing at shubhampal.co.in as a Content Writer, Shivani Shetty blends her passion for creative writing with thoughtful storytelling. She enjoys exploring human emotions, social issues, and cultural narratives through vivid, character-driven content. With an intuitive style and a love for arts and mental health topics, she brings depth and perspective to every piece she pens.